Some rambling about my previous video and how to deal with making YouTube videos.
How’s it going everybody this is beat the bush today i’m gonna talk about how i got a bit too cocky this i think will be the most difficult video that i ever have to do a while ago i made a video called how i spent thirty five thousand dollars on vacation a lot of you have written in the comments that it was clickbait and i profusely disagreed on this sometimes
Childishly i provided my own justification saying that hey you know in the end it is exactly what i did but looking at it some more it took me like a week or two of thinking about this before i realized that i was wrong you see as a creator i have to make thumbnails look alluring so that you would click it but that’s actually a really fine line to walk because if
You try to make it too alluring maybe it might be true but maybe if it’s not exactly what the viewer thinks that it’s going to be then it might be deemed as clickbait now all over youtube i see a lot of videos that are clickbait you know sometimes i let it happen i go okay you know this look clickable i’m gonna click it anyway and see what this person has to say
Sometimes when i click on it it’s completely different than what the thumbnail shows suing the end my definition a clip a it’s a bit softer than what the general audience would think of i actually had to look up what clickbait was in the definition here it is something such as a headline or in the case of youtube a thumbnail or also the headline designed to make
Readers want to click on a hyperlink especially when the link leads to content of dubious value of or interest and now i think a proper definition to this is that if it makes you click on it and whatever the viewer thinks that they’re gonna click on and you do not deliver on this promise of the title or the thumbnail then it would be considered clickbait now not
Long after i made a video about how to deal with hate comments and a lot of you think that it was a response to that video saying that it was clickbait in reality i actually finished making that video before even that clickbait whole thing happened so when i make that video about how to deal with hate comments it might seem like i got it all figured out but when
We in reality no one has really ever traversed this path you know having more and more subscribers in this youtube world yeah i’m just learning as i go i don’t have a lot of creator friends who has more subscribers than i do where i can ask them questions and you know sort of learn off of them what in reality for that video is i’ve gone through a certain number
Of things and then i’m just giving tips and tricks on what i personally gone through but this is not the end of the story i am pretty sure as the years progress i’m gonna have more difficulties i’m gonna go learn new things from it i want to take this time to address that sometimes the good comments might be just as bad as the bad comments and now let me explain
Why of course the good comments are very good and i really appreciate them but whenever you get a really good comment saying oh we love you or stuff like that it’s in a way is damaging for my character because as a youtuber when you read enough of these things it starts to get in your head when time after time you read comment after comment saying oh you’re great
It starts to sort of build up your ego a little bit at a time no matter how much you’re trying to suppress it i know whenever i read them i usually respond saying haha you know you’re inflating my ego when in reality it’s not really kidding it really is inflating my ego all that much this tiny little bit when you have enough of these praising comments you start to
Get a bigger and bigger head you start to get more arrogant you start to get more conceited which i think possibly you know i probably feel like i already did become more big-headed so what do i need to do here i need to bring it down a notch come back down to earth sometimes even in real life people say they’re a fan and stuff and i’ve caught myself saying certain
Things and when i hear it back in my head i’m like oh my gosh i cannot believe i just said that that sounds so cocky but you know you can’t just go oh just just kidding you know i don’t want to say that but i did realize that i’ve been catching myself being a little bit more cocky than my usual self before my channel got more and more popular before i started this
Channel i could never imagine that it would be such a big test of your own character now this is much harder than i ever thought it would be it’s definitely a lot harder than an engineering job where you go in and you go to a cubicle and then you just essentially do work with numbers basically you don’t have any people interacting with you so having made that video
Where it was definitely a mistake it certainly hurt myself and i wouldn’t say it’s anyone’s fault it was basically my own fault for not knowing a certain thing about youtube and i’m pretty sure a lot of youtubers out there they have certain things they do not understand about a growing channel perhaps they will make the mistake sometime later on maybe after they hit
A million subscribers or something or maybe it’ll be a completely different thing not clickbait because maybe they totally understand that and they you know make us mistake in something else but it’s the realization that you made a certain mistake you’re gonna get hurt in the process and i certainly was and over the course of you know a week or so and you know
I got quite a bit depressed i couldn’t really concentrate as you saw i couldn’t make all that many more finance videos i feel like when i made that how i spent thirty five thousand dollars on vacation video i feel like what i was doing was kind of like giving you guys the best of what i have in terms of finances which is kind of like a secret sauce sort of you
Pour your heart and soul into a piece and you manage to package it together it takes many hours to do it and then you upload it and what it feels like and i’m not blaming anyone here that actually said it was cliff eight or anything because i feel like this is my fault but what happened is that i put this thing this beautiful thing i thought it was beautiful out
There and it gets trashed and stepped on the reality is everything that you put online it’s going to be looked at with a fine microscope sometimes it might be little letter says sometimes i leave something on there and people see it and i didn’t catch it in this case it’s more like what’s in the content itself what’s in the thumbnail what’s on the title that gets
Scrutinized by fine detail let me try to explain what it’s like because everyone is gonna be a creator not everyone’s gonna be a youtuber out there imagine you spending days on something let’s say you baked a cake or something and you know you put all kinds of nice decorations on it and you put your heart and soul into it you bring it to someone that you really
Like or something it’s a gift and once you bring it to them they go whack slap it and it falls onto the ground all this work it just spiders on the ground it just it hurts going back and looking at something like this and actually emitting yourself and sort of i guess humbling yourself to it emitting guilt saying that you’re wrong i was wrong i’m gonna of course
Try to not do that in the future i hope to catch these character flaws in the future before i even have to make a video about it before i even make a certain mistake about this so let me cover where i think i strayed from the proper path i guess i think it was even before getting the silver play button um probably at a point where i know i was gonna get it like
I know that the subscriber rate is a certain amount i would pinpoint it at somewhere 60,000 or 80,000 subscribers where probably i started getting a little bit cocky i hear myself saying certain things in front of friends and stuff and that’s a very bad sign i think this is just something that youtubers have to grow and learn into it may not always happen at that
Particular point you know maybe some youtubers they might start getting cocky after 1,000 subscribers 10,000 or something but it’s more like a character test when you get to a certain point where you know you have enough people saying oh my gosh we love you you are great every little thing even within that clickbait video people were defending my position they’re
Saying oh yeah you know i don’t really care that you may this it’s great anyway we love you anyway we’re gonna watch that video anyway i think that is the dangerous point because you could very easily just kind of block out all these what i called hate comments and then just look at the good comments and then you can think that you’re right when in fact i actually
Need to open up a bit more and sort of letting in these type of criticism even though when at first it may seem like hate comments but those are the hardest because youtube comments they’re the most brutal thing ever people on the other end or essentially anonymous it’s kind of like i know some of you have experienced this before when you accidentally read something
That someone wrote about you and you’re not supposed to know this and they just kind of talk really freely about you this is exactly what you’re gonna get on youtube comments people are going to freely say anything they want about you and it’s gonna be brutal and this is what it’s like you’re reading something from someone that is writing about you and they did
Not expect it to be heard by you and so i’m sure a lot of people have experienced this in the past and it’s quite shocking imagine how shocking that was except in one single comment you’re just getting this day in and day out every single comment people are just bombarding you with this and it’s sort of like a protection mechanism if you don’t start to block out
Some of this stuff out oh man you just you just can’t live your life i’m looking at these comments every single day and if i try to absorb these type of comments and really think about them i’m really going to you know just have a miserable life so this is more like it defensive mechanism i kind of i guess so that you block out most of it so i don’t know what to
Say you got to let in some of it in order to help yourself grow and you know i i really have to listen to more of these hate comments in the future so my feeling with this is some youtube channels maybe they don’t ever have to think about this they just go about their own ways they all only stay in the certain niche the way i’m structuring my youtube channel is
Like i’m opening up a little bit more and more and so what you’re looking at is kind of people talk about how they kind of know me already even before they meet me in person so it’s kind of like that some channels they are very closed off they only let in like a small sliver of what they do and they can be completely popular with their channel like this but that’s
Not the way i want to do things i want to open up more and more and just a little smidgen of what i kind of think about but i’m not sure if i can actually implement this but open it up so much that people know more and more about me not just you know what currently i am comfortable with letting people know i just kind of want to you know just kind of open up more
And more maybe one day i can talk about my past relationship maybe one day i can open up about my network finances things like that that i did not want to share in the past so this is something i’m all over all the time it’s like oh should i share that aspect of my life or not it’s just something i think about and i might just do that in the future so i think for
A lot of youtube channel you just might stagnate yourself if you just go in and day in day out and do exactly the same thing a lot of channels just kind of taper off other channels maybe if they’re doing the right thing already they get more and more popular but i feel like the right way to do it is to improve yourself always improve yourself sometimes it might
Be a new camera new video you might notice that this is 60 frames a second these days 4k video 60 frames a second like i’m just pushing the limits on this thing not just on technical aspects but also in character building as well i’m open to building my character also needs improving not just equipment not just video style focusing things like that so i think a
Lot of youtubers will come to this point where it’s almost like a test you need to get past this test stay humble or else you won’t get past this and you cannot reach the next level when will you reach this humbleness test i don’t know when you reach a certain subscriber count that would inflate your head enough that will cause you to become more cocky maybe you
Earn millions and then you start becoming really cocky and then that will be the test for you so let me just review over the tests that i felt like youtube has caused me to try to pass which is very very difficult to get to 100,000 subscribers you need to be very very consistent you need to constantly improve yourself constantly improve the videos you need grit
You need perseverance the second test which i felt like i am coming to right now and trying to pass is the humbleness test i’ve hit this like straight on is like a brick wall it really caused me to drag my feet the last few days and got really depressed couldn’t do videos very well so the test after this i don’t know what it’s gonna be but i feel like it’s gonna
Be that much harder if you want to really challenge yourself make a youtube channel this is really hard so thanks for watching everybody mmm i hope this was useful
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I Got Too Cocky By BeatTheBush
